Morning Meditations #117: Bubbling of Thoughts

MM 117
The standing desk may have benefited most from moving the television. Doings so allowed me to scooting my dressing back. The desk is far more comfortable to work at now. “One thing leads to another” is an observation about causation.

May have stayed up too late night before last. But there was lots to tend to so, you know, worth it. Finally moved the giant, 10,000 pound, dead TV outta my room. In its place is now a bookshelf. I think I am going to try this no-television-in-the-bedroom thing. I’ve had a lot of people try to kick down their old TVs to me, said no to all of them. I have the laptop if I have a need for Netflix or YouTube. There are activities that accompany well with some background entertainment. Those will move to the living room now. I also think that’s a good thing.

Ivy’s been running the living room all summer, which is fine, but may have contributed to a retreat to the bedroom/office. By taking a few of those activities out into the living room, the dynamic of who is using the television or the middle of the floor will flow back in my direction. It’s good for children to realize spacial occupancy will play an important role in future social situations.

Dorms, roommates, and the family she may have someday, are mad possible by being able to share space. She’s been a living room hog, and I’ve held up engrossed in work. The laptop roams well, therefore I can still do some good work anywhere in the house, so no excuses to not be with the rest of my home. May do me more good than I realize; a good locational balance used to exist. Balance could bring on old brain states to blend with my new health conscious ways. Same for the daughter.

I don’t expect a lot of flack with school starting for us next week. Smooth social transition during a life change (1st graders rule) while a lesson is being taught does sound like the kinds of goals a family, no matter how small, should achieve when there is an opportunity to do so.

Win-win it seems.

This line of thinking made me think about thoughts in relation to meditation. The bubbling up of thoughts in the brain is something all questing mediators must face. There you are, focused on breath, holding your wedding ring (whatever that is) in your mind’s eye, scanning the top of your chest near the collar-bone and bam! You’re thinkin’ about jam, and how burnt toast can have a metallic taste. Your cheeks may even clinch a little when remembering the tart, sweet flavored sugar jelly. Mmmmm.

If we’re lucky, we notice this and bring ourselves back, gently finding our place again. Other times the jelly leads to sugar, which leads to fat, which leads to high school, until two minutes have drifted by. Time that the mind would benefit from if spent in quite observation of the moment. This is the mediator’s challenge. Negative thoughts are going to come, and sometimes they will be relentless and horrifying. Your worst fears and nightmares will show themselves during meditation. There are some studies that show meditation can increase anxiety and depression. I agree with the findings. If you are already depressed, and your mind keeps coming back to that which saddens you, meditation will be a painful negative reinforcement of your condition. If you are learning a meditative practice, a good teaching source will have that lesson early. As with many situations we humans have to deal, if it is going to help it is likely, at some point, going to hurt.

Yet, this gets us to one of the practical benefits of practicing. The currency of silent observation increases exponentially with healthy practice mindful of the dangers. When taught appropriately, we can overcome the negative moments, even walk away shaken if we must. Everyone knows the resilience of the human mind. It’s on display at the Olympics. Athletes pushing themselves to new limits as world and Olympic records fall, new flags raised. This same display of courage is in every community, they are your neighbors and merchants, teachers and nurses, soldiers and civilians. The practice of meditation uses that at the same rate as any other activity. The peace will return. And once conditioned to experience that more often, a difference can be seen.

Life will slow down.

Some people report enhanced sensory input. Chocolate is sweeter, the intricacies of leaves becomes more evident, or maybe the texture of bed sheets sooth the skin. Often it will manifest in a heightened awareness of the body, especially if one is practicing body scans. You will notice parts of yourself you may have never once truly thought about. The interconnection of neurons means that thoughts can ripple and cascade through the brain. Anything that changes one part is changing the rest of it. A new species of thought will rearrange the local environment. The mind too is changed during those events. After all, mind is just the perception of the brain’s behavior. New ripples create new structures and patterns, thus a new you, every day.

This is true whether you meditate or not. But I prefer the state of myself via meditation. I hope it benefits Ivy as well, to see her father more at peace, more engaged with his passions and home. Good people behaving well, hard to argue with that.


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